Where's That Second Wind?

I have nothing to report. Nothing. Nada. Nil. Null. Zilch. Zip. Now don't let the colors distract you. They all still mean the same - zero.

Alright, let me search my memory a little here... well, there was that time last saturday night when we attempted to listen to our band play at this local bar. Then again, that wasn't so fruitful as we still ended up not hearing them because of a scary, will-piss-you-off, unfortunate event that happened that forced us to go home almost immediately after we got there.

Aside from that? Nothing.

Nada. Nil. Null. Zilch. Zip. Zero.

Why is it that I can't seem to pull my energy up and be excited? I started preparing September last year, and I was in 5th gear. I couldn't even sleep sometimes cause there were so many ideas in my head. Now I can't even start the engine. Did I burn myself out with the first wave of prep? Maybe the expenses are starting to overwhelm me. Is it my personality - that I get bored very easily? Is it because Leo's not really that excited and his attitude has rubbed on me? Is it because I lost some suppliers that I really wanted to get? Is it because I'm too busy at work? Is it because I'm more excited of the life after wedding now?

I really don't know the answer. It's probably a combination of all those mentioned above. One thing I know - I have to get out of this phase. This nothingness. This stage of stillness and no progress. I've gotta find my second wind. If I don't start moving, I don't think anyone will. Then Christmas time will be here and I'd be in super super panic.

*Haaaaaayyyyy*